Change me

Change..! This word always ring in my mind.

Actually, I am not a person that is quiet.

I am talkative but I ain't good in interacting, social stuff.

Afraid to look into people's eye when talking to them.

Afraid to face teacher sometimes.

Jus because I am shy.

This is my weakness.

It kills me a lot a lot.

I try to be talkative, making more friends.

To be better in social life.

But.. I can't.

It's like something is blocking or stopping me from doing this.

I jus don't know what?!

Is it because I am shy? This question keep ringing in my mind.

I have another bad weakness too.

And it kills me a lot.

Lazy..! Because of lazy, I lose lots of things.

I am lazy to practice my piano.. my ruan.

In Grade 6, usually people 1 year could take exam already.

But I need 2 years, because I ain't reach the level yet.

In Chinese Orchestra, people 1 year could participate in the perfomance.

But I can't.. Ain't good enough yet.

I take 1 year half to be there.

Because of that, I haven't shown to them that actually I can do it jus like them.

Or better.

From now on, I try to change.

Change as much as possibly..!

I don't want because of my weakness.

Shy.. Lazy..!

I lost lots of things or opportunity.

Change.. Change.. Change..! !